Ridiculous. Periodtheend

So I know I'm ridiculous.
I've liked you since last semester yet haven't done anything about it.
Nor do I know if I'm capable of doing so.
You're such a good person.
I feel inadequate next to you.
I can't seem to forget your hugs.
I'm seeing more of you around campus which is making everything surface again.
When I first met you, I knew I wanted to get to know you but I'm so shy it's really hard for me to do so.
Even though I know you're not someone to NOT get to know someone.
You're on my mind a ridiculous amount of time no matter how I try to NOT think about you or anyone else.

What I would love more than anything right now?
To have a night with you. Just the two of us. Just getting to know each other.
I'm not as ridiculous as I may seem.
Well, maybe I am... but I think there are enough pros to outweigh the cons.
Or heck, maybe you would LIKE my oddities.
And I love your big heart and your outdoor nature.
Just throwing that out there.


I'm pretty sure I could fall for you in a second if I really let myself.

Wild...

Heyyy.
What's up with anyone out there who might be reading this?
Pretty much nothing new with me. I'm just waiting to go to Italy basically. Maybe when I'm there I can... I don't know... prove myself somehow. I'm seriously freaking out that I'm not a good enough photographer to do it for a living.

But hey, that's basically the story of my life anymore.

I have nothing else to worry about except my career, so I worry about that with all the excess worrying I would be using on other things. GREAT.

I mean, no boys in my life, no new friends. I'm just slipping into this pattern of a semi- mundane life. We'll see how this ends up, shall we?

-Tracy