Failure.

Why does every guy I meet try to take advantage of me? I mean... I just don't understand. I know I'm not the most gorgeous person in the world, but I'm not hideous either. I'm crazy and I know that, but so is just about everyone else these days.
So why do guys pick me to target?
Do I LOOK like an easy target? I sure like to think not.

I'm just so lonely.

February is coming up too. It's my worst month of the year, and not because of the weather. It will mean one year of being single and that same day is also the anniversary of one of my stupidest decisions ever. I know some people might tell me I have the Winter Blues, but I know that's not it. I'm lonely, missing my family and two of my best friends, I'm slightly stressed by school, and so many bad things have happened around this time of year in my life it's ridiculous.

I'm trying to keep looking at the bright side, but I'm so emotional sometimes it's hard. There are some AWESOME things coming up this year: traveling to Italy in the summer and Spain in the winter, my best friend's baby being born, getting farther into my major and hopefully knowing for sure what I'll one day be doing with it, and other things that I'm forgetting. It's just hard when I have nobody close by to call up and say "let's go hang out I'm in a fabulous mood" or "can you come over I need someone to talk to". I miss having people I'm super close to even relatively close to where I'm at.

Still, more waiting has to go on. Story of my life....

-Tracy